didn't do well for interview..

yup, didn't do well for interview. my gut feel after interview is usually quite accurate. this time round, i have a strong hunch i will not get it. i think the fact that i rejected their offer last year will affect my chances negatively this year. and i was too nervous.. didn't answer some of the questions clearly. sighz..

the interviewers did not have any records of my application last year or the interview. but one of them recognise me.. or rather she finds me familiar.. so she asked have i been interviewed before. i told her yes. i didn't elaborate on the offer but she asked whether did i proceed to 2nd round. then i told her that i did and also about the offer.

as expected, they asked me about why did i reject it. i answered. and she asked,"you rejected our offer last year. why are you so confident that we will offer you again this year?" straight to the point right?

my answer,"actually i am not very confident that they will offer me again this year.. blah blah blah... but i won't know if i don't try. so i will really be glad for an opportunity.."

sighz.. bad bad bad..

i am so upset!! was sulking while driving to office. feeling real lousy cos i know i didn't score in the interview. my mood sank even deeper when i reminded myself that i will probably have to carry on in my current position, doing what i am doing now. sighz..

i asked when will i be able to have an answer.. i think it is unlikely that it will be before i go nz. sighz..

i sms my dear about the bad interview.. but no response from him at all. sighz.. think he is either sleeping or watching tv.. ignoring his hp. sighz... why he don't reply sms? the sms i have been getting from him recently are all,"wait for me at bus stop", "reached car park", "i m home"... nothing else. whenever i sms him to tell him what i doing and ask about him, he doesn't reply .. not anymore..

mood now: