life is fragile

grandpa passed away on 5th jan. i dun have much memories of spending time with him cos i grew up at mama's place. i only see him once a year, duing chinese new yr. all my memories of him are, 'ah gong, xin nian kuai le!' and recieving ang baos from him. he always give $20, in the new notes that were published that year. eg, if new $2 notes were launched that year, he will give each of us 20 pieces of that new noties. crispy new notes...

i'm sad that these are all the memories i have of him. ah peng and the rest had spent school hols at his place before. they have memories of him bringing them to hawker for breakfast..and a lot more. i just wished i had those memories too...

besides the responsibilities adults had to bear, another pain of growing up is losing people you loved. it's ah gong now.. in the future, there'll be others.. i'm scared.. very scared.. life is fragile..