dear got my parcel!

dear dear hasn't been updated his blog since tue.. so i guessed he also din c the msges i left him on msn and my email..

he did leave msg on his chatbox for me though.. he got the parcel and he said he love it! hehe.. i hope to see him online tonight.. so that i can talk to him, ask him how's the shoes and how's my shoes too!

i miss dear so much.. sigh..still feeling sad about my work.. dunoe if sad is the word. maybe not. i dunoe.. trying to get myself not to think about it. feeling tired from working till 3am last night.. and also from the crying in the past few days. a lot of thoughts are going thru my mind. thoughts like opinion about my boss. i dun dislike her but i dun like her either. she is a boss/colleague but not a friend.

do i dislike my job? it is interesting but long hrs especially under my boss. and i definitely dun want to slog long hrs on this and only earning a capped salary.

yesterday, i was telling yan about my boss snapping at the hanoi hotel people.. and that a lot of people knows her bad temper. yan commented,"ask her if this is how she wants people to remember her.."

that comment reminded me that i don't want to be remembered by how much i work or how hard i work. there are a lot more things in life than just work. this job is just a job. i should limit the effect it has on me. other aspects of my life is good. i have a boyfriend who loves me very much, a fun and happy family, close friends and also good health! this job is only just 1 portion of my life.. i shouldn't let it affect me so much! all the other aspects are more impt than just a job..

and also i should not let my boss's negative opinion about me get me down. i cannot control her thinking or her opinion. if she thinks i am lousy, den let it be. i will not try to change anything. i will just focus more on doing my tasks well. if it is still not good enough, too bad. i just dun match her style loh.

ok, got to go take care of babies..