get to work!

the same colleague gave me that mocking smile again this morning when she saw me with the trolley.. dear might think that I am being over-sensitive and making a fuss out of nothing.. but i really can sense the mocking element from that colleague's eyes and laughter. it is real... and it is hurtful..

i was quite pissed by that colleague's smile... wanted to ask her what is she laughing at but there are other people ard.. so i didn't confront her. she is a mother of 3.. what's so funny about someone pushing a trolley? why is she so childish??

spoke to marcella earlier.. she was thinking of shortening the timeline she gave herself.. she felt that she is just being a worker here.. just work and work. she cannot see any advancement.. and felt her capabilities are being underutilized..

it's the same for me. sighz.. next wk got a small exhibition event and i just want to get some related brochures printed. i submitted the brochure layout to my irritating boss for approval on 12th Feb but until now, he had not yet read through and approved! he just brushed it aside again and again! that is not the first time i submitted! is it so hard to read that few damn pages and approved it for printing, so that my life is better? what the hell.. he does not think that the brochures are impt.. in that case, why do we have to do our own brochures? just order from germany lar!! how abt brochures for products developed here? just submit the info and ask germany to do the brochure loh! den we just order or just take the softcopy and send for print. those product info have to submitted to HQ anyway. that's what the other division do.. why we need to be different?? it's not as if we add any unique selling point or anything special. it's the same stuff!! waste time..

everyday, i wonder why i am doing here.. yet i am not disciplined enough to send out more applications. i need to get more motivated and disciplined about my job application.. i have to. going to set aside first half of the wk to do job applications. jiayou.. do it. send out applications. get a new place. leave here!!